In Fruits, Ice cream on July 31, 2012 at 8:22 pm
I took a little break from blogging these past few months, and before I knew it, I wasn’t baking nearly as much as I used to either. What had been a daily occurrence was reduced to a weekly activity, until having decorated cupcakes under the cake dome or ice cream in the freezer was almost unusual.
My lack of blogging saddened me, but no matter how strictly I berated myself or how generously free time came to me once on vacation, I didn’t have it in me to write.
Fortunately, blogging has become too great a part of me to disappear completely. Even though I don’t bake as much, every time I gather ingredients or set cookies out on a plate, I find myself reaching for my camera. My hands automatically style the food, and I look for the softest, most diffuse light in the room without thinking. Blogging is a habit my subconscious won’t let go of, and it’s a habit my conscious knows it shouldn’t abandon. Read the rest of this entry »
In Fruits, Tarts/Pies on September 24, 2011 at 1:13 pm
As my school life resumes, I’ve finally fallen back into routine, and life has picked up its pace once again. Gone are the days when the only recurring structure to my day was waking up and falling asleep. I can’t plan my activities on a whim any longer, nor can I decide to change the course of my day well after it has started. I’m now bound to schedules and after school activities, to homework and long hours spent in the confines of a classroom. But surprisingly, I quite like it.
Around the end of August, I fell into sad resignation at the realization of how quickly the days were passing by. As the first day of school crept closer, each fleeting night became a rerun of the last. Just like every evening before, I found myself snuggling my face into my pillow, breathing away the melancholia and trying to suppress my anxiety at the thought of starting my sophomore year of high school. Read the rest of this entry »
In Fruits, Ice cream, Pastries on July 26, 2011 at 2:58 pm
It takes physically returning to the world that has been strumming on your heartstrings, playing out a melancholy melody peppered with notes of longing, to remember why you miss that world as dearly as you do.
We’ve visited my grandparents in Oregon every summer for as long as I can remember, growing attached, over the course of one month, to the life they welcome us into. In early June, before school lets out, my sister and I begin to plan our vacation to Oregon, excitement fueling our lists of places to visit. We mark the restaurants and shops we want to revisit, unwilling to let go of the traditions established over the years. The plans made so early on are born out of eagerness for the summer to start, though they also serve to prepare myself for the awe sure to come at the realization that after so many months away, we’re finally going back. But despite my preparations, the awe never lessens. Read the rest of this entry »
In Brownies and Bars, Fruits on September 15, 2010 at 6:33 pm
It rained for the first time in months this morning.
When I got up from my comfortable, toasty warm bed and dressed myself for school, I realized that the weather was considerably cooler. The sky was a dull gray, setting the mood for my math quiz the first hour of school, but very unlike the bright blue it has dressed in all summer. As my father commented on how the clouds looked like they might leak rain any second, I started getting excited. Fall is my absolute favorite season -I love the crisp, cool air that blows in through the kitchen window as I brown butter on the stove top or sit by the oven, cautiously peeking in to check on whatever is baking. I love being able to wear cardigans and sweaters at school, shivering not because of the frigid air the air conditioner blasts through the vents of the classroom, but because the weather really is cooling off. But best of all- I get to start baking with warmer flavors. Cinnamon, nutmeg, ginger, and pumpkin. And my father was right – soon enough, the clouds let loose a drizzle of rain which soon turned into plump, wet, droplets. Read the rest of this entry »
In Cakes, Frostings and Icings, Fruits on September 6, 2010 at 12:31 pm
I’m aware that I’ve written about it before, but school is the only thing on my mind now, day and night. I’d much rather be able to spend my last hours of vacation enjoying it, lounging in the sun with my mind cleared of homework-related thoughts, but school keeps creeping back into my mind, no matter how hard I try to chase the thoughts away. I’m still on vacation, but every hour that passes feels like the last hour of free time I’ll enjoy. Waking up in the morning I stay in bed a couple minutes longer, just to feel the warm rays of sunlight falling across the room and to hear the cheerful chirping of the birds outside. I know I won’t have that luxury when school begins. And in the evening, sitting by the warm glow of the lamp nearby, I read my book only paying half the attention I should be, secretly enjoying the fact that I have a new baking project planned the next day, and nothing to interfere with my plans. When I start school, will I have the time? I know I’m worrying, exaggerating even. But high school is new territory, and quite honestly, I’m nervous. Read the rest of this entry »